got my results last night...officially a graduate! finally...i guess it wasn't an easy battle for me frankly...

M said perhaps you could do better but u just didn't do it...wondering what else would make her happy...i don't know..."so no As?" another heartpain, but ignored it. eventually, i juz said that "how can i study when you guys aren't at peace?" then the blame went to D...

i didn't had much celebration when i grad except with my friends today. it was nice to catch up about life and work abit or so i guessed.

bot myself a domo vibrating pillow as my own graduation present that i can relief stress in the future...hahahs...

lately, i juz don't feel like staying home long...but where can i go lah honestly? everywhere i go, in the end i have to come back home right?

when i reflect back a lil i didn't really quite like 2009...my favourite pet died...Mr D is not with the F at the end of the yr. Felt like I don't have a celebration from the F that finally I grad lah...sad right?Friends matter but I guess to me F matters more, just dat I felt I have a dysfunctional F at the moment. sians... =(

Overheard M wants a De from D if D is with another P...nothing to say...I don't want that to happen though...No child wants that from both Ps. everytime ppl asked about D, I just smiled simply...saying that everything is fine.

Currently, I'm searching for jobs and in the midst of interviews...got my 2nd interview for a co...pay isn't much for the 1st yr as it's juz training. I understood the fact that I need to attain a licensed doing this post and hence the consideration of wanting this job starts to sink in.plus the lump sum seems to attract me.after 1 yr, the pay will rise btwn 2-3k.that's not including allowance and bonusses.but i just wonder if there's better jobs out there for me.S was suggesting about teaching pri sch as a career...better remuneration but I'm not that confident of being one actually.

Realised that my old passion starts to drift away slowly...lols...

neway, this post is juz not a happy post...i'm just a bit down for a moment, trying my best not to drag it on though.lols.

come on intan! aja aja fighting! *breathes in breathes out*

"Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips"

Finally! I'm at the end phase of schooling...been bumped most of the time ever since i left my books there and then. although at the same time finding jobs...so far been over 20...though feeling alil bugged that out of these number...only 1 called. lol. Guess the economy is recovering toooooo slow...[not as fast the ones in 1997 (if i got the year correct)].

My final semester results will be out on the 30th. Hopefully my gpa pick up abit...not expecting much though.so that's that for school and job hunting part of my life

Life's pretty alright...I guess. Though, met up with F. today for lunch, said that I look very tired and I kinda told her I haven't had much appetite. which is true on that part...at the moment certain things disappoint me a lil in the family...Kinda wish I have a better D. in my life...so just to hide em alil, i kinda spend more time with cats and talking to myself...nah im kidding...lol.

1stly i don't talk to myself...I do spend time with cats which are Mon Mon aka Doraemon(catsitting sis's cat), AhBoy aka Mot, Bobby aka Qiji (the new addition to the family) and Diva aka Kembang. At the same time, while I'm free, I'm parting myself spending more time with mom and 2nd bro and on weekends with my dear. And also catching up with friends...old and new ones-trying to be more social although I know I'm not that talkative in groups lately...It's just the way I am that I'm better talking one on one.

So that's practically my life...bah...and I've been listening to Lighthouse Family...some old songs in the 90s...pretty nice...I like Lost in Space...

Just would like to dedicate this song to my dear...You're are my soul satellite and I would be lost in space without you...heehee...Yes I am very thankful to have you in my life and I miss you dearly even if I'm shy to say it sometimes. =p

Sometimes I get tired of this me-first attitude
You are the one thing that keeps me smiling
That's why I'm always wishing hard for you

'Cause your light shines so bright
I don't feel no solitude
You are my first star at night
I'd be lost in space without you

And I'll never lose my faith in you
How will I ever get to heaven, if I do

Feels just so fine
When we touch the sky me and you
This is my idea of heaven
Why can't it always be so good?

But it's all right, I know you're out there
Doing what you've gotta do
You are my soul satellite
I'd be lost in space without you

And I'll never lose my faith in you
How will I ever get to heaven, if I do

And I'll never lose my faith in you
How will I ever get to heaven, if I do

And I'll never lose my faith in you
How will I ever get to heaven, if I do

And I'll never lose my faith in you
How will I ever get to heaven, if I do

And I'll never lose my faith in you
How will I ever get to heaven, if I do