Hi again bloggie,

Again it's been awhile I haven't updated how I am.

So I'm just gonna sum up what has been happening in my life lately.

- My parents got divorced.
- I struggled and got shingles in my previous job.
- I quit my old job.
- I got a new job and a better pay.
- I've been travelling more than expected that is 3 times this year.
- I moved to sis's place.

All in all it's just momentarily ups and downs.

Although I can say I have been experiencing depressions this year because of my parents' divorce and my old job.

Now I just get agitated easily.

I realised no matter how much I don't like (I won't say hate anymore) my old man, I gotta admit that some of his characters are in me...I can say I'm not all very much like my mom either.

I have learned myself better through divorce but still I am lost at what to be at times.


-Driven when need to be
-Lazy at times
-Likes sleeping
-5 min motivated to exercise
-I will never be motivated if people criticize or telling me what to do or comparing themselves or others with me
-I will be motivated if people around me are positively encouraging and helping me out.
-If I want it, I'll work it out.
-I like to travel but I look at my money too.
-I never like people who are boastful or think they are too good.
-I can't get along with people initially if they think they are too good or those who are too quiet unless I find him/her interesting.
-I like comedians.
-I like chocolates and ice cream.
-I tend to live in denial about my age but I realised I am not perfect
-I get depressed when I'm alone or nobody talk to me
-But I also need "me" time.
-I don't like to be told on what exactly to do.
-I like opinions
-I like maturity
-I'm not materialistic cuz I don't really like to wear jewelry much, carry branded bags. (Well I do want a wedding ring)
-I got myself an iPhone cuz I fell in love with it. Nothing to show off really.
-I would like to get married but I am not expecting much on happily ever after "the end" ever since my parents' divorce.
-I hate fights.
-I only get mad for a reason but after awhile if the reason is permissible and that I can accept it I won't be angry anymore.
-I get agitated easily if people are stubborn.
-I am stubborn but I can be soften if persuaded.
-I say nothing cuz if I say something when I am sad/angry, I will cry easily.
-I hate to show people that I cry.
-I never like to trouble others. Even when they offer me help, I would say it's ok. The reason is because I wouldn't want whatever help that is offered to me being brought back as a reason that I am relying too much on others.
-When people criticize me, I will go quiet and just cursed at him/her inside. And then decide to proof that I can be better than them. I know it sux.
-I'm laid back.
-I'm getting a feeling that I am outta my hobbies.
-I like to discuss my feelings but I don't want to be hopeful that others can help me.
-If people are very nice to me, I'll treat him/her nicely.

Now I feel like eating nasi goreng kampung...shucks. Out of the topic duh.