Hi Blog, Today i kinda feel deep and slightly low cuz i let myself be after a hectic month of work. Been going home late with night shifts and yet im not complaining much about it. This year I plan to rest for abit from so many courses...since last year i have done 4 IT courses and then landed myself new job. Phew and I can say I am proud of myself too. CCNA CEH ECSA SEPM This year I aim for 2 courses only since I am much busier than last year. ITIL PGP Encryption So here I am thinking about 2 to 3 years time on what I am going to do with my life. So what is next? Career path? Having kids? Will I have energy to run around chasing after my kid running around shopping malls while I juggle on my neverending reports to my clients or bosses? Lol...i started to imagine myself like Sarah Jessica Parker movie "I wonder how she does it?" as she tries to juggle everything on being a career woman, a mother and a wife. It's harder than I thought...ok now I sound like David Moyes trying to fill in the shoes of Alex Ferguson. I really wonder how is it going to be...seriously I can't be the best for everything as well...although I will try to be. Can I cope? Or will I break down? I hope I can cope, InsyaAllah. Amin. --------------------------------------- And for Allah is the Highest example. (Surah Nahl:60) So when Allah Subhaanahu wa Ta'ala , in His Infinite Wisdom, tests us with a situation that we think is difficult or takes away something that in our mind was good for us, we need to remember that perhaps it may not be so. Perhaps if we had continued in our way, it might have been harmful for us and whatever Allah decreed for us is actually better for us, for He is All-Wise and All-Knowing. Allah says: '...and it may be that you dislike a thing which is good for you and that you like a thing which is bad for you. Allah knows but you do not know.' (Surah Baqarah: 216) Al-Hasan al-Basri said: 'Do not resent the calamities that come and the disasters that occur, for perhaps in something that you dislike will be your salvation, and perhaps in something that you prefer will be your doom.' Remember that we are dealing with the One who is Arham ar-Raahimeen, the Most Merciful of all that show mercy. All the mercy that we have in this world from Adam (Alaiyhi Salaam) to the Day of Judgment is only one hundredth of the Mercy of the Most Merciful. And He is Most Wise. He knows and we don't know. So have faith in Him and trust in Him and although, sometimes we may not understand the reason behind certain things, know that as long as you obey Him, whatever He will do for you is, in fact for your betterment. So if Allah didn't give you that big house, or that nice car you wanted or that big raise you were hoping for, know in your mind and believe in your heart that it is actually better for you. Who knows.....maybe that big house, that car or that money would have become a source of 'fitnah' (test) for you....Perhaps you would have become arrogant and conceited because of it, and Allah saved you from it. Because, you know that the Prophet (sal Allaahu Alaiyhi wa Sallam) said: 'Any one in whose heart is even a mustard seed's worth of pride will not enter Paradise.' (Muslim)