got my results last night...officially a graduate! finally...i guess it wasn't an easy battle for me frankly...

M said perhaps you could do better but u just didn't do it...wondering what else would make her happy...i don't know..."so no As?" another heartpain, but ignored it. eventually, i juz said that "how can i study when you guys aren't at peace?" then the blame went to D...

i didn't had much celebration when i grad except with my friends today. it was nice to catch up about life and work abit or so i guessed.

bot myself a domo vibrating pillow as my own graduation present that i can relief stress in the future...hahahs...

lately, i juz don't feel like staying home long...but where can i go lah honestly? everywhere i go, in the end i have to come back home right?

when i reflect back a lil i didn't really quite like 2009...my favourite pet died...Mr D is not with the F at the end of the yr. Felt like I don't have a celebration from the F that finally I grad lah...sad right?Friends matter but I guess to me F matters more, just dat I felt I have a dysfunctional F at the moment. sians... =(

Overheard M wants a De from D if D is with another P...nothing to say...I don't want that to happen though...No child wants that from both Ps. everytime ppl asked about D, I just smiled simply...saying that everything is fine.

Currently, I'm searching for jobs and in the midst of interviews...got my 2nd interview for a co...pay isn't much for the 1st yr as it's juz training. I understood the fact that I need to attain a licensed doing this post and hence the consideration of wanting this job starts to sink in.plus the lump sum seems to attract me.after 1 yr, the pay will rise btwn 2-3k.that's not including allowance and bonusses.but i just wonder if there's better jobs out there for me.S was suggesting about teaching pri sch as a career...better remuneration but I'm not that confident of being one actually.

Realised that my old passion starts to drift away slowly...lols...

neway, this post is juz not a happy post...i'm just a bit down for a moment, trying my best not to drag it on though.lols.

come on intan! aja aja fighting! *breathes in breathes out*

"Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips"